Nostalgia, sadness and emergence 🧩

I'm coming out of a bit of a funk, thanks to support from my spirit guides, family and friends. I had couple of (unusual) weeks of feeling hopeless, anxious, doubting and uncertainty and getting bogged down in 3D concerns – valid, but unnecessary. All is well. 

It’s been a quiet, peaceful and still time for me being based in one place, and a great opportunity to make the changes I’ve wanted to with Roho Rafiki, but in the solitude, my mind has wanted to play impactful memories, and grab hold of what was (in the past) seeking control and comfort - people, situations, familiarity - and old versions of myself in the inbetween. I know I'm not to settle at this point.

But I’ve been reminded that once we ascend higher, we cannot go back to our old ways – despite the tantrum the ego throws.

I’m a divine feminine and have a purpose and path to walk on Earth at this time.

I reached back to an old friend who received a third cancer diagnosis, but after a brief exchange, it became apparent our frequencies we’re not aligned, and we respectfully disconnected again. It always happens. We cannot slide backwards on our journey of soul growth, we're not going that way. 

If human me wants to reconnect with those who I no longer resonate with, I get a block, withdrawal, silence, or feel an emotional sting in some cases to release, to keep going, ascend higher. It’s tough.

Especially as nostalgia of chapters closed play in a quiet mind.

It hasn’t helped that my activating divine masculine counterpart has been tugging at our energetic bond through random song lyrics - like ELO's Ticket to the Moon, and 1000 miles or Fallin', and I’ve felt pain, sadness and aching from there too; but we’re not a vibrational match as we once were.

Although my soul knows what my mind does not, I’ve been reminded I’m always exactly where I need to be, doing as I should and I'm navigating what comes. 

My new Roho Rafiki website is almost ready – for us not I. It’s taken me a few months to design and build it, but I’ve been in a good place here and I’m happy with it – especially for the new Community Hub elements that are coming to life.

I’ve had time to be outdoors in nature in West Sussex, specifically drawn to Devil’s Dyke and Chanctonbury ring – a tree’s energy there feeling significant with various orbs around it (main image).

People who’ve needed to cross my path, have – by visiting the cottage 😊

My parents visited me here too, and we had fun in places like Brighton, Shoreham-by-Sea and Chichester and mum brought me a book “The Lost Lands” which highlights Chanctonbury as a sacred site in ancient land, Avalon. It also says Madagascar is part of Lemuria (I was correct) and Mu, and other places I’ve been and intend to go, are key places in these lands. A friend also saw my golden shards of my aura around me. Confirmations that I did know - despite my mind doubting at times.

I also had a robin redbreast fly into my 'home'. Of course I had to usher it out, but symbolic of a home of positive energy, and attracting spiritual blessings, of protection from passed loved ones. It also liked to sit and stare from the gate, again being watched over. 

But, I know this beautiful, secluded chapter with Stanley will close, so I’m trying to be fully present in it before repacking the rucksack - as this too will be over.  

We often rush from one chapter to the next, not realising that this IS LIFE and we are always learning so much. Energetically, we cannot go backwards, so embrace what IS.