Becoming the eye of the storm 🌪️

For a few days after the summer solstice I felt a fury and anger. P!ssed off with establishments, corporations, people in power harming innocent or weaker people through wounded egos, false sense of power, entitlement and greed. 

I now believe this turbulence was collective energy I was transmuting, as was the hopelessness and futility of a couple of weeks ago before the Solstice.  

I felt a wildfire surging within me. I lost my cool during interactions I've needed to have - and it seeped into interactions with close friends as I wrestled to get a handle on it, delivering uncomfortable truths, no longer conforming or cowing to be accepted or liked. 

Nothing calmed me, a blaze of power inside. My (rare) edge is tough for most, unconditional is tough for most, as it destabilises them and is deeply uncomfortable - and people dislike that.  

And we all have shadow, and this is not something to suppress or hide. 

Acceptance of yourself is all that is needed. Forgiveness doesn't mean you accept the actions or words of others, it means you heal yourself and release toxicity you carry.

I'm a divine feminine, with a warrior lineage, and a role to play on Earth, burning down what is false, and bringing in unity-consciousness, truth and a mirror. 

I do need to be more considerate of my delivery at times, pausing to think about articulating what I want to convey, rather than erupting under pressure, and when necessary, taking accountability for any hurts I cause. However, the message is always accurate. It's often a response to what is known energetically, but is being concealed or hidden physically.

My souls always knows. 

Ascension is absolutely not love and light bullsh!t. Learning the theory and saying the words, but not putting them into practice, is lip service. The power is in experiencing and wrestling with what is real and raw and comes up inside of you daily as a human being - even without full knowing of why things are happening. 

The weeks before solstice I felt melancholy, sadness, hopelessness, futility, a failure by society's standards - a funk I could not get out of either. 

I had spent this solstice at Chanctonbury Ring creating a chalk stone heart at the bottom of the sacred tree there. A few days later I found myself back there, followed by a trip to KNEPP, a rewilding programme in West Sussex (where I could see Chanctonbury mound from the castle) . Afterwards I drove past Cissbury Ring (so stopped to hike to the top) on my way to Worthing coast - a map showing me that these points were positioned in a perfect line (unconsciously known to me) and have a lot of tales and folklore around them.

But with this fire, there has been a shedding, a purging, purification, a release (a burning ritual) a leaving behind of what isn't worth my time or energy. I have a purpose on Earth; without wasting any more time looking back, hoping others can catch up or understand. I have noticed a huge difference.

I've also decided not consume anything, in any capacity, that doesn't make me or my body feel good. This is important for me now. 

Being in the storm means being broken down further, opening us up wider, to receive, to surrender and be reborn into newer versions of ourselves are as we progress to higher levels and receive new activations. 

I close my past chapters myself. 

Everyone is on a unique soul journey. Each is designed for them to learn the best way and can include trauma, suffering, challenges and they will learn when their soul is ready. Trying to affect, influence or change someone else's life comes from a place of ego, and we cannot know what they must go through to learn.

Respect and honour them without trying to 'fix' them - they are doing their best with the wisdom they have. Let them navigate their own path; if you cannot, or your energy becomes compromised, move away.  

I have seen butterfly spirit often that reminds me that transformation is beautiful - if we surrender and allow it to happen. See Roho Rafiki's instagram for the full spiritual meaning of butterfly. 

Souls are still arriving into my orbit, without any chasing. Beautiful bright souls who need something from an interaction, or I, them. Having conversations that would challenge the average person, but relieving their troubles immediately, as I watch them feel lighter from the exchange and commenting so. 

A challenging but beautiful time of transformation so that'm ready for my new adventure in September. 

Let yourself experience the full spectrum of your humanity, but do no intentional harm.